I've Stabbed You, Yet You Forgave

The moment I've been made to look like a jerk. Seriously, it felt worst than any shit I've been through before.

Let's just imagine. You hurt a really good friend of yours like firing a rocket launcher towards that person just because of a small tiny whiny matter. Yes. Back to reality, I actually did that. Its so....what the eff lar. And to realise that I've made that good friend of mine upset and pissed, I felt really lost. You're such a nice person, how could I have done it. >< Full of regret and shame, I don't know how am I ever gonna face that person again. He or she would have told me straight into my face, "Buzz off you f***ing asshole!! Undeserving bitch!!"

Well, if that turned out, I wouldn't be writing this in the first place. The reason why I'm writing this is because, he or she didn't do that. That's what I wanna testify. Instead, he or she just have to tell me, "I was pissed, but I didn't want it to ruin our friendship." Those simple, yet meaningful words, crumbled down the walls in my heart. I couldn't react. I was stunned. After all those hurtful things I've done to you, yet you wanted our friendship to stay strong. I couldn't ask for more. TT

This morning, it was an ordinary Sunday, with an ordinary message by the speaker today at church. Forgiveness. I thought to myself, "Cheh...simple stuff only lar. No big deal.". Well, that was until I got myself into the biggest guilt ever. That's when I realised. Forgiveness. Such a simple thing, yet so powerful.

Thank you God. You have always been my guiding light.

Thank you my good friend. You have truly been one. =D

*puffs*

Higuma

Cheer up emo kid.

It's time to let it go. TT

And also time to study. S2 ftw. =)

*puffs*

Retrace by Anberlin

The best band ever. Awesome song.

*puffs*

Tracing Steps

At the end of the semester every year, there's always this one event which everyone...not really everyone, would be anticipating for. Yes. Prom night. Some people would call it ball. At first, couldn't attend it because we were supposed to have a class trip to lang tengah. Everything was so much more straight forward then. Now, it might be postphoned. Thinking about whether to go or not. 125 bucks wei. I'm already broke. TT

Anyway, money is besides the matter. I just lost the mood to go. First time I've felt so disgusted over this kinda stuff. Should I go, just because everyone's going? I doubt I would consider that into my ultimate decision. =)

Prom night. Walking down the street I've once walked. Sigh. Makes me reminisce the time I had during prom night 2 years back. Still can remember the time you went around one utama to look for your dress. Such a pretty silver dress. Did some pretty simple matching so that what I wear matches your dress. It was fun. Haha. And you definitely looked breath-taking that night. =D Thanks yeelian. It was a great night.

Hmmm....after writing all that, I just realised that I've mentioned my point. Haha. This is what I'm looking for. An enjoyable night. Would it be like that? Facts are doubting me, but my heart longs to give it a go. Such dilemma. Sigh.

Oh, how I've tried to get you out of my head.
And I lied, broken words I said.
Never thought I'd walk on this street again.
Standing where it all began.

Tried to forget when I left this town,
But it takes me right back when I come back around.

Retrace the steps we took on that long summer night.
I'm back there by your side.
Retrace the steps we took when we met worlds away.
Counting backwards while the stars are falling.

*puffs*

PC Fair 2009

Sorry about the late update. I was actually waiting for the right moment to write this out. Hehe.

This year's PC fair was rather interesting for me. First time I did an actual shopping at the PC fair. On the first day, wendy, adrian, li ling, terk chen, chee fai, jin khai and myself went to KLCC to check out what's hot there. The telco companies were spamming their broadband promotions like mad!! Imagine....one hundred people coming at you to ask you to subscribe for their packages. WTHECK seriously. =.="

Wendy got herself a pair of the steelseries iron lady headsets. Its pink wei!! 50 bucks extra for the paint. Hahaha. Nvm lar wendy. As long as you like it, that's all that matters. =D Sigh. Left the place empty handed. So sad.

I went on the second day too. This time, with evan and phwa. My gosh, horrible timing lar the both of you. Make me wait at kl sentral. Haha. Well, after contemplating for half a day, I've bought the steelseries 4H headsets. Good budget seriously. Managed to bargain 10 bucks off. Hehe. While waiting for phwa's dad, we went to the entrance of the petronas philharmonic building. Very nice interiors. Evan just has to bum there. Haha.

A board pointing an arrow towards the concert halls.

Nice chandeliers. =)

On the third day of PC fair, I was there. Yeah. I'm crazy. Who goes to all 3 days? Me. LOL. The crowd yesterday was mad.

Well, I actually bought quite a lot of stuffs. Finally, the "thing" i've been waiting for so long, has arrived into my wide-open arms. Yes. I got a new laptop. YAY!! Pretty good specs for the price I paid. Very satisfied with it now. =D So yeah. I was actually waiting for the laptop so that I could write this post out. XD

Now, busy updating and putting all my stuffs into my laptop. Will take a while till everthing is done.

That's all for now.

*puffs*