Enough Black

Tired of seeing the black page. Makes me feel sleepy. So, I thought I would change the layout a bit. At least its something brighter and cheerful now. People wouldnt get the first impression of me being an emo child now when they see the yellowish-green layout. Sadly, I dont know how to do photo editing and html stuffs. If not, I could put Simca (from air gear manga) as my background. XD

Damnit. I dont know how to describe the sounds of lightning. So here goes. It has been raining heavily for the past few days. Yesterday's bang-bangs of lightning has strucked my desktop's mobo (short for motherboard) . TT So sad. Now, I cant play cs and chat on msn comfortably. All my data might be gone too. Shit. That must not happen seriously. I cant afford to lose all my stuffs which took me loads of hours to download. D=

And yesterday, loss in a futsal tournament. I dont mind losing. But losing because I only get to play for 7 minutes in the first half of the first match out of total 3 matches, is pure bullshit. Paid 14 bucks for it. Equivalent to 2 bucks per min. Great. Reason? The same shit that happened to me back in one of my post about a football tournament. Second time this shit happened. Not letting it happen again.

Yesterday damn unlucky seriously.

Sleepy. What to do? Sleep. =)

*puffs*

Strong Yet Weak

Damn....I've not updated for 2 weeks already. Most of the time I was lazy to type everything out. Haha. Anyway, within the past two weeks, life has been hard on me. So busy with doing work and playing around. Experienced quite a couple of events that has brought my world crashing down to the ground. Most of them are personal. But the one that really hit me like a giant rock being thrown at my face is my results.

Its so bad, that I'm not gonna share it with anyone anymore. "Why did I do so badly this time?" I kept asking myself that question. Its so frustrating to know that I didnt get what I expected after all that working my ass off till there's nothing left of me. Then, to think of the number of papers I'm retaking and the amount of stuffs I gotta study, it really breaks me down. With only 7 weeks left, I gotta study 2 times of whatever I did last time. How lar? I have to make so much sacrifice for this. And its gonna be the toughest challenge ever.

Despite all these, I'm really glad to know that I still have friends that understands. Friends who help me pick up the broken pieces of my life and put them back to wherever they belong to. Friends who carry me back to my feet so that I can continue walking the unexpecting path of life. Friends who help me to focus on my studies and give me motivation to study. I thank you guys for always being there for me.

The past is over. Now, its time to write out a brand new chapter of my life. =)

*puffs*